What happened to January?
January has been a weird month... especially where the weather is concerned. The first half of this month was wet, windy and mild. Then about halfway in everything suddenly changed and the temperatures dropped, and it's been snowing ever since. Now the snow reaches well above my knees in some places. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Back in November I was so set on enjoying winter this year, embracing the snow and the cold and all of that side of Norwegian nature, rather than pine for spring all winter long as I usually do. But then winter never came... not properly anyway, and I couldn't help feeling glad the snow melted so soon, and rejoicing in the green moss and bare ground we had for so long. Naturally I was rather taken aback when it then started snowing a couple of weeks ago and never stopped. It's too late, now I don't want winter anymore, I want spring! *sigh* Oh well, looks like it's going to get milder again as of next month, so maybe it will all melt soon anyway. I hope next winter is more normal.
On a different note, January has also been weird in that it has just sped by all too fast! Usually January seems too long for me, it drags along dull and dark, seemingly neverending, but not this year. I suspect it is because I never do anything much these days, I am always at home (except when I take my short forest walks). It seems as though I am standing still, and all the rest of the world is speeding by without me. I feel so isolated. My back has gotten worse, so I can't go anywhere because sitting in a car hurts a lot. So I try to spend my days alternately standing up and lying down. When I am standing I try to play the harp or sew. I found that I could place my sewing machine on my kitchen counter with the pedal on the floor, which works really well. However, I could only stand for about half an hour before it hurt so badly I had to lie back down. Lately it hurts even to stand for a little bit. I am getting pretty frustrated that none of the treatments I've tried have worked, and am getting, well, pretty depressed to be completely honest. This is the most personal I've been on this blog, since I usually don't write about my negative feelings much, but I guess I need an outlet.
Anyway, I have decided to really take charge and try everything to get better, because I am sick of being patient and just relying on all the advice I've had from my physiotherapist, chiropractor and manual therapist, and I have booked an appointment with an expensive private clinic (Volvat) in Oslo to see if the experts there have some better advice for me. I have also changed my doctor to one who actually has time for her patients and is reportedly very understanding and good at taking people seriously. So maybe I'll get somewhere now. I just so badly want my old life back, I want to be able to sit down and play the harp, to do anything really, I want to go to work and see people.
Sorry about the negativity. Here are some photos I've taken in January.
Showcasing some of my new jewellery that I got from my dear Cris who runs the fantastic Etsy shop Neirahda.
A foggy and cold January morning.
I sewed this skirt with a matching belt. Rather pleased with it.
Lots of snow.
But it's all right as long as you have warm clothes.
Well, that's it from me for now. I'll try to blog more often, if I can only find the energy to make the effort.
How has your January been?